what should i do?

2010-08-19T08:55:00.000-07:00

this is wad i wrote in my phone while was crying that time:

"Why would you want to give that i don't ask for.

I just want happiness. Its priceless.

Thats all i want from you and all from my friends.

Its not that hard to give someone a happiness right?

2010-08-17T06:30:00.000-07:00

my panadol has finished.. O.o

i really need it rite nw!

and i also need you.. :(

well, wad to do..

haiss.

im having bad headache rite nw,

or maybe i guess migraine..

and i think my fever is going to come back again.

argh!

i really cant stand it.

hais.

its been the whole day :(

why nt forever?

its better without me.

you wont ever noe, how far you can go..

2010-08-16T07:29:00.000-07:00

dreams~
when i hear the word, i'll stop thinking.
i have no future.
my dreams are gone.
i'm in the wrong path now..
i can't turn back now..
i can't change the fact..
i'm totally stuck.

I don't know where's the wind going to take me to..
I can't live it..

2010-08-10T07:14:00.000-07:00

I may not get to see you as often as i like.
I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night.
But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love, and I can't let you go..

2010-07-10T06:53:00.001-07:00

When I first saw you, I was afraid to talk to you. When I first talked to you, I was afraid to like you. When I first liked you, I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you I'm afraid to lose you.

2010-07-10T06:47:00.000-07:00

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.

2010-06-03T11:01:00.000-07:00

I should go. I should hurry up and go.

Because my stubborness will turn into tears.

I should hurry so i won't see you left behind.

A bit faster, i should hurry and go.

Our departing ****, it's crying now.

Our overflowing sadness spills out..

It's hard... even just one step forward,

so i just stand crying with my back on you.

Don't love. Goodbye will always come.

It hurt so much that you cant even breath.

I'm afraid. Living with my eyes opened,

because even if i'm searching,

i wont be able to see you.

instead of yearning for you...

living with my eyes closed is probably better.

2010-05-26T05:53:00.000-07:00

I NEED A BREAK!

TALK TO MY HAND

2010-05-26T05:41:00.001-07:00

-regrets-

i thought my life is getting better and better..

but it turn out the other way round..

i should have walked that way, not this way..

2010-05-26T04:07:00.000-07:00

Just pretend that I don't exist.

Thats all you have to do.

2010-05-16T04:16:00.000-07:00

argh!

hate projects!

it is getting more stress when holiday is nearing..

i still havent read any theory papers YET!

maybe tmr. I'll stay till late!!!! damn!!!

i just have to keep moving forward and be stable..

i want everything to slow down..

i want everything to finish as fast as it can..

i want to start holiday faster..

bt..

still i have to calm down and wait cuz holiday is coming

2010-05-12T06:47:00.000-07:00

Everything seems miserable nowadays..

Tests and exams are squeezing in through..

My brain are becoming smaller..

Seriously, i cant take it anymore.

I felt like giving up and restart.

I regret taking this course.

I felt like wanting to let it go..

But I'm stuck in the middle now..

Its like I'm in the middle of the road of no where..

2010-05-11T07:45:00.000-07:00

yea.. i found a cca that suits me already ;D

TENNIS ALL THE WAY!

i dont regret and im not tired of playing it even though i feel tired..haha

sooo yeah..thats me.

Then nw i am really worried about my ifs and eic exam..

which is coming fast..argh!

i didnt even take a look at the theory paper..

im scared that i will retain and repeat the module ;C

okay.. another prob is.. when am i going to tell HIM?

i want to..bt i dunno how to.. :C

HELP!!!

2010-04-21T05:15:00.000-07:00

I'm still choosing cca..

which one is rite for me? haiss..

people say, choose that which is rite for you and what you like on doing,

but the thing that i like to do best is,

the thing that i don't like people to see..

That is the problem..

What am i going to do?

argh!!

2010-04-12T03:18:00.000-07:00

Can we broke through this Avalanche?

2010-04-06T22:20:00.000-07:00

Life is unfair sometimes.

2010-03-22T01:38:00.001-07:00

Thinking abt the future..

I am afraid to go on..

As I was looking through the future..

I am scared..

Nobody knows what will happen later..

We just have to prepare for the worst..

Bt if I have the power to change everything,

i would want everything to stop..

I want to stay young forever..

bt i noe.. that will nvr happen..

it is impossible..

2010-03-21T06:27:00.000-07:00

Lyrics for this current song:

I should have done that

I should have ignored it

like something i couldn't see

I shouldn't have looked at you at all

I should have run away

I hould have acted like i didn't hear it

like something I couldn't hear.

I shouldn't have listened to love at all

Without a word , you let me know love

Without a word, you give me love

You made me even hold your breath but you ran away like this

Without a word, love leaves me

Without a word, love tossed me away

what should I say next?

my closed lips were surprised on their own

coming without any words

Why does it hurts so much?

Why does it hurts continuously ?

Except for the fact that i can't see you anymore

And that you are not here anymore

Otherwise, it's the same as before.

Without a word , you let me know love

Without a word, you give me love

You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this

Without a word, love leaves me

Without a word, love tossed me away

What should I say next?

My closed lips were surprised on their own

Without a word, tears fall

Without a word, my heart breaks down.

Without a word, i waited for love

Without a word, love hurts me

I zoned out. I become a fool because I cry looking at the sky

Without a word, firewell finds me

Without a word, the end comes to me

I think my heart was surprised to send you away without any preperations

It came without a word.

Without a word, it comes and leaves

Like the fever before

Maybe all I need to do is endure the hurt for a while

Because in the end, only scars are left.

2010-03-20T10:02:00.000-07:00

There's always a story behind every song...

2010-03-20T04:56:00.000-07:00

hais. what a miss..
i didnt get to join y'all on that day.. ;C
if i knew that..... i would go..
aaaaargh! bye.

2010-03-13T23:08:00.000-08:00

What will you do if i'm not myself?

2010-03-13T05:21:00.000-08:00

hmm.. wad should i post today?

oh..ya i forgot..

i really have to watch nodame cantabile.

maybe this sat or sun..

i am realli excited for this one!!

bt maybe im gonna watch it alone cuz nobody want to follow me..

SHUT UP! if you ar gonna say "serve you right"..

NODAME CANTABILE! im gonna watch you,

no matter what happens.

anyway be4 this i've watch the drama..

that why im excited of watching on what happen next in the movie.. ;D

2010-03-09T05:41:00.000-08:00

my life is like a waste of time..

what i believe sometimes it wont happen..

what i imagine wont happen..

then...wat WILL happen if i didnt do anything at all?

2010-03-09T05:36:00.000-08:00

sorry for blogging bit by bit

and there is also no stories to tell

you want to noe why?

becuz im EMPTY..

I AM AN EMPTY PERSON..

FEEL WITH EMPTY REASON

AND EMPTY ANS..

2010-03-09T05:08:00.000-08:00

Have you been absent from love?

I do.

2010-03-09T04:51:00.000-08:00

sometimes i just felt that i want to stay at home forever..

cuz home is the best..

and LAZYING at home is the best..

wat do you think?

2010-03-01T06:45:00.000-08:00

I only can see you from far..

Look at you from a min to a min..

Fear of getting near to you..

Can't tell anybody but only myself..

Pretend that everything were fine..

Because when you accidentally break it;

;everything will change..

;will live in embarrasment..

;and have all sorts of feeling that are good and bad..

shhh!

2010-03-01T05:19:00.000-08:00

my eyes still cant open when im in lecture room or even practical..

im still in searching the cca that suits me..

and im still haven't start studying yet for my IFS class test..

anyway this thurs theres inter sch X country and i have to go for it!

IN IT TO WIN IT!

hope i will get in the top 50 ;D hehe

2010-02-23T06:58:00.000-08:00

sory today i will just make it short..

today was fun! swimming! ;D haha

everything were absolutely perfect...

except for one thing:

im just dissapointed that some of my friends

thought that i like "minah"...

hais..

is it the attitude that make you think or the appearance?

actually i nvr change.. did i?

gtg.chow

2010-02-22T06:17:00.001-08:00

peace yo!
i'm back ;D
i just renew my blogskin.. nice or not? hehe
kay nehmind..
Now i just want to tell myself and everyone out there:
No matter what happens,
just go with the flow,
cuz life is getting tougher..
Everything is not gonna be easy as it seems...